10.06.2015

Wings To Fly

“...let us lay aside every weight...and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us.” Hebrews 12:1

A shift is in the works, and I’m being intentionally quiet and seeking the Lord. In times such as these I trade-in my exuberance for a reflective demeanor. Inward I go. Perhaps it’s a survival method to guard from self condemnation that sometimes comes with parenting. What if? Why do I take after my mom? Why can’t I be more like them?

Last weekend my daughter and I shared some pretty ugly moments over studying and homework at the kitchen table, which caused a trigger to search my heart. I'm still searching, and likewise checking my motives in comparison with God’s desire at this particular season. This is most important, as I have been through many shifts as needs changed and her independence grew. Like potty training or the first days of school, I felt a shift no matter how much I wanted to keep things as they were.

Whether moms give in right away or drag out the process, we instinctively know when it’s time to give our children a gentle push.


I’ve pushed my daughter in so many areas, but I gather this one will be bitter sweet as I let go and let God. I am unsure what will come of this next push in giving her more room to be responsible. Will there be failing grades or missed assignments? I’m a little unnerved. Even so, I stumble over this truth, “When do I stop, so that God can begin His work (in her).” This child is my precious promise, and like every other parent I don’t want her to have less than what is possible. I don’t want her to wait years upon years to succeed in something…anything. Yet, even now God is speaking, “If you don’t let go she’ll never learn to run to Me.” And so I surrender, for God has already begun the work in my heart revealing His desire.

Even though life happens, and we say with a smirk, “It is what it is,” as Believers we have an advantage. We have access to God in heaven sitting on the throne wanting to hear from us. And He is faithful to comfort, guide and lead in all things.

Since the birth of my daughter I have done a lot of growing up with her, and it’s been a beautiful journey overall. Perhaps this too will take on a vibrant hue of gold when I take a step back in a few months and declare, “Look what the Lord has done!”

 
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